Sunday, October 28, 2007

Warning: a rant

You know, it occurred to me yesterday that I'm so tired of everything being SO DIFFICULT. Not only have I been covering for my boss and assistant for the past two weeks on top of my own full-time job (which, for the record, was two full-time jobs), but I have to come home and try to have a semi-clean, or at least not embarrassing, home and happy healthy children. And try to take care of myself? It's a joke right now.

I ended up sobbing in my room yesterday after melting down in front of my dear family. My daughters are 2 and 3-1/2, and they are wonderful but just being their ages. I often feel like I'm working like mad to just get everyone where they need to be, get the to-do lists done, and try to grab time to launch my graphic design freelance business after everyone is in bed. The arguments about candy, lip gloss, videos, and blankets just puts me over the edge.

On a happy note, a walk saved the day. My older daughter Katie and I escaped for a walk with the dog and it truly made everything so much better. Now if I could find the time to do that every day...


Kimberly said...

Your rant reminds me of the end of Alexander and the Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day: Some days are just like that.

We all have them. Sounds like you are really trying to do a lot though. Remember, the important thing is just to try to be happy.

I've had "morning sickness" for 4 months, and now have lost the ability to bend at the waist, but somehow I still have a job, the house really isn't as bad as a lot of other sout there, and the kid is for the most part happy.

It all works out. Eventually. And exercise really does help, even if it's just a quick walk.

Anonymous said...

I'm having a numbing meltdown kind of a day, too. Is it possible to push past the needs of our loved ones and do what we need to do?
Maybe it has something to do with the Psychic who read my cards(at a Halloween party). She said that despite my tremendous ability, something is keeping me's changed my perspective, let's just hope it doesn't renew my kill or be killed instinct.