January 14, 2010
It has been two weeks since I underwent surgery and two weeks and a day since my last run. The whole thing was not fun and I'm dying to go for a run. The surgery was the result of four (9) pound babies and a rough first delivery and I've waited till now to have it. I am glad it is in the past, but it was not an easy transition knowing I'll never bear more children. I know at age 45 I should have felt this way anyhow, but there is always a chance.
I'm glad I'm a running Mommy since I think it helped my recovery, but being a running Mommy also makes me feel very physically strong and not being strong is hard on the psyche. I felt this way after the birth of my first child and 40 plus hours of labor. I was wiped out and felt kind of wimpy for having such a hard time. Everyone and I mean everyone in my life is counseling me to rest rest rest. I know this, but this is not easy. I want to get out there right now and let loose. I'll post again when I've had a run.